She lookin’ all cute n’shit
but a goodie :]
Feeling myself today
and I got a big afro :]
So I got this a few days ago and let me first say, thanks to whoever sent it because it is the first anon message I’ve ever gotten.
Because of the events of the past few days, I didn’t want to answer this.
The short answer is no. He’s not.
But it grieves me to say that. Because I can’t ever begin to explain all the things that I have been through with that man over the past few years and the night that I took the photo of us that got over 100 notes, was the end of our friendship and anything we could ever have. After 4 years of waiting and pretending that I was just his friend, that I didn’t love him, that he wasn’t a giant piece of my entire world, it all came crashing down on top of me. See I told him how I felt about him one summer after my freshman year of college and with one fateful phone call, I was shot down and told that he didn’t feel the same. We agreed to stay friends, to forget. Since then, it’s never felt like a friendship but an awkward secret affair where we both hesitantly watch what we say to each other, how we touch each other, and how we respond to the other persons actions.
Over time, we changed through a series of unfortunate events in both of our lives and we became different people than we used to be. Time got in the way, distance put a strain on us, life beat us down and now we’re here.
I held that promise and tried to forget until that night, now six weeks ago, when he pushed the limits of our friendship too far under the influence of alcohol and made promises of love that he didn’t mean. Or wasn’t ready to make, I’m not really 100% sure which one. It all came spilling out of my mouth like in a movie, we were even standing in the snow outside of a bar. I told him everything, was the most honest I’ve ever been with anyone, and it took so much out of me that I felt physically exhausted. In return, he told me I was the one. He told me he loved me. He told me I was perfect. Then he took it all back. He ignored me for 5 weeks and then took it all back.
To put it plainly, I told him that I needed a break from him. What I meant was that I never wanted to see him again. No apology could fix it. I haven’t had that best role models to learn what a healthy relationship looks like, but I know that this was not it. I couldn’t bare another day carrying that sham of a friendship on my shoulders. It was unfair and overbearing.
If you love someone, you let them go. So I did. That was way more than you asked for Anon, but I had to let it out.
“Sometimes the person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger” - Fall Out Boy, Miss Missing You
SLG photo challenge day 2: crossing shirt. me and my deuce rocking the shirts for an rso spotlight a few years ago.
it was nice today so I got to wear letters and a skirt! :) #wearitwednesdays #slg #sigmalambdagamma #cmugammas #onwednesdayswewearpink
this is how I feel right now… :/
sooo exhausted but i can’t fall asleep
good afternoon :]
one of the last pics as a red head, it all changes this weekend
haven’t posted new pics of myself lately so here ya’ll go
Me and Joseph on Saturday
before the night went all bad
*excuse my crazy face in the 2nd pic
Photo credit: Danielle
Day 1 of 30 day Video Challenge: Introduce yourself
Bare with me followers, this will be a struggle
alsoooo check the red hairrrr: I havent been able to post pics but let me know how you like the hair!
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hitting the streets :)
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